When I was younger, I thought what I really wanted was a guy who gets me. A charming guy who can make me laugh. A gentle man who knows how to treat me like a lady. The one who can make me feel pretty, make me feel special, make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world. But you know what… as the time goes by, as I’m growing up, I know that all the stuffs I just wrote down here, are no longer the number one things that I really want.
I know so many guys with charming smiles who can make me laugh and make me feel good about myself within seconds. They’re very polite, their pick-up lines are beautiful to hear. But what does it mean anyway if all they want is just to have some fun? It’s just to make them feel like a prince charming with many girls attracted to them. What does it mean to me if they never really want to stay?
In time I eventually understand that I need someone who makes me feel safe. Someone whom I believe will stay with me for better or worse. Not someone who makes me need to put so much efforts just make him stay. Not someone who only treats me as an option. Not someone who keeps making me being scared of him leaving in a blink of eyes. I simply need someone who gives me and him a chance to give our best shot. And believe me when I say, this kind of guy is not always easy to find.
Maybe he’s not someone who always understands me, but at least, he never stops trying to learn. Maybe he’s not always funny, not always nice to me, but I want him to always try to make things right for us. Maybe he’s not the smartest and richest guy I’ve ever met, but I want him to be tough enough to get through the worst possible days. He doesn’t need to be a super wise one, but I need him to accept me with all my flaws. And everytime I say “I” in this blog, believe me again when I say, it represents most of all the girls in the world, especially the mature ones.
It’s still nice to have someone who can make me laugh, who knows how to comfort me, how to make me feel special and so on, but at the end of the day, everything is nothing if he’s not willing to fight for me, fight for our chance. So that’s it; that’s all I (or all the girls on earth) really want is someone who gives his best to keep us as a part of his life. It might sound simple, yet once again, this guy is hard to find.
6 thoughts on “What a – Grown up – Girl Really Wants”
Riffa, dirimu anak pertama bukan? Klo anak pertama, berarti kita sama & agak kompleks rasanya nyari pasangan utk anak pertama, krn selama ini udah terbiasa mandiri & diandalkan di keluarga, jd pada saat butuh seseorang harus yang bener2 layak… #teori
Hehe… Iyaa, I’m the oldest kid in family.
Iya yah, emang kompleks. Pengennya tuh orang bisa diandalkan gitu. Bukan yang dikit-dikit ngambek trus kabur, hehehehe.
Iya banget.. Pengennya dapet yang lebih kuat.. Tp jaman skrg susyeeeh nyari yang macho, yang galau mah banyak.. Hahaha.. Tp jangan putus asa, ayo berdoa yang giat 💪
I like this statement -> “Yang galau mah banyak.”
Oh wow…. couldnt agree more… tkuuuu… love reading your blog… 😉
Thank you 🙂 Glad you like it.