Last year, someone asked me repeatedly, “What do you like from him?” 

I went blank and I barely gave her any good answer. Having said real love didn’t always need a reason, deep down I knew that I did have reason in every little thing I did. I knew I had it, I just didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know what I should do to make people understand.

As time went by, as I met many guys I never wanted to be with, I started to understand what I liked from the guys I wanted to be with.

I used to like them because they made me feel special. They were never the guy who flirted with many random girls.

I also liked the way they stood for themselves. I always like the guys who know how to make a statement. Not a people pleaser who is too afraid to fight for his thoughts.

And yes, it’s true that I have certain feelings for smart guys. I liked them because they made me learn something new. It makes a man more like a man when they are expert at what they do.

Finally, I used to fall for them because they managed to make me fall for them. The little things they did just worked well to me. 

There I said it… the reasons why I liked the guys I liked. Why didn’t I tell these reasons earlier? Because sometimes, I need to lose something before I understand how previous it was. 

Sounds stupid? I know. And maybe I was. But at least, now I learn something.