A journey to remember

My Favorite “What If”

Posted on: August 1, 2016

I know that I often said that we should live this life with no regret, we should be grateful for all we have in life, we should be happy for who we are, and bla bla bla. But did you know? Me too, sometimes have some kind of “what if” questions deep in my mind. There’s always some times my mind wandering and wondering how my life would be if I were not who I really am.

What if I chose to work just like many other people who can always leave on time?

What if I just wrote books and blogs and poems for a living?

What if I didn’t say no to – too – many guys back in my past?

What if I didn’t overthink so many things in my whole life?

What if I was not too hard on myself?

What if I stopped being such a perfectionist?

What if I just went on with the flow and followed whatever seemed easy to me?

If I did all that, would my life become any less happier? Would I become any less wiser? Would I become any less better than who I am?

Somehow I know, the answer to all that questions is definitely a yes. I will be a lot less than who I am without all those struggles. I know that the more battles I fight, the more battles I’ll win. But well, I’m only a human anyway. Is it ungrateful if I say that sometimes me too want to have a break from my own life? Is it childish if I say that I want to set myself free for a while? Is it stupid if I say that I want to rest my brain from all the troubles and my heart from all the pains just for a little time?

Seriously, I forget when was the last time I managed to be ignorance, careless, and simply said, “That’s not my problem anyway.”

I forget when was the last time my heart just jumped from one crush to another.

I forget when was the last time my life felt easy, less drama, less chaos, and less stuffs to think about.

I simply really forget how a simple life felt like.

I’ve been spending a couple of weeks asking myself, “If I could turn back the time, would I ever choose to live my life any differently?” This question has really been my favorite what if question recently. I know that the answer is simply a big no, but seriously, I’m really thinking that maybe, it would be good for me to stop being me for a while.

I need a break, a time off, an escape, just for a little while.

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I’m not a funny person. I’m not good at mingle with random people. I’m fierce, I’m a straight-talker, I get annoyed easily, and I have this resting b face that makes me look angry all the times. I’m not that kind of person whom people would miss when I’m not around.
But you know what?
I’m okay with all that flaws I have in me. Nobody is perfect, and neither am I. At the same time; everyone on earth is special, and so am I.
I know my worth. I know what I’m very good at. I know what I want and I work hard to make it happen. I’m a go getter and I fight my battles. I’m not an angel, but I’m not a devil either.
I was born to be the very best of myself, and just because I don’t always have what others have, it doens’t make me less as a person inside out. I’m whole just the way I am, and I’m beyond grateful of all that. I know that my career has been a bit of trouble for my personal life. I admit that it feels like a loss to me sometimes, but you know what? I don’t feel sorry about all that, not a even just a little bit.
My career has given me a comfort bed to sleep, taken me to the places I’ve never seen, brought me to the incredible people who end up as my best friends, and most importantly, it has really made my parents proud. I can sleep tight at night knowing that at least, I can support my parents after their retirements.
The way I see it, there’s nothing bad about all that, so why should anybody in my position feel sorry and less proud about their own hard works?
Don’t let anybody make you feel less than who you are. Make yourself and your loved ones proud, and for me, the rest doesn’t matter at all.
Be great, women! Whatever you choose to do for your own life, be great at it and don’t feel sorry for anything good in your life! Happy International Women’s day and stay awesome! My life has been going great in the past one month. Incredibly busy, but I can’t be happier.
I work my new job during the weekdays and work on my own start-up all over the weekends. It’s tiring and consuming all my energies, but it never feels like a hard work somehow.
I meet many people who are super friendly, I get to work with new challenges that test me every single thing I’ve learned in my entire career, and at the same times, I still manage to pursue my lifetime dream! For the first time ever, I understand how it feels like to love what I do that I never have to work a day in my life.
God, thank YOU for all these blessings! I often said I couldn’t ask for more, yet again, You gave me more and more reasons to be thankful over and over. I’m beyond blessed! Alhamdulillah.

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