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Someone Who Changed My Life

Posted on: March 7, 2016

A few weeks back, a guy from my past congratulated me for my recent promotion at work. He seemed impressed with my achievement. I only said thanks, but deep in my heart, I whispered, “Maybe, I wouldn’t make it this far if it was not because of you.”

So many years ago, my life was completely a boring one. I didn’t have any passion, dream, ambition, not either a simple purpose in life. I didn’t even understand what a true happiness felt like. My life was okay, but not wonderful. My life was very plain in so many ways, until I met him.

What makes him so special? Well, a very long time ago, he was the only person who believed in my potential even a lot more than I believed in myself. He said, I could be anything I wanted if only I tried hard enough to make it happen. And somehow, he made me believe in that!

So there I started to picture my own future. I pictured myself as a successful young woman with a pretty dress working in a high rise building (sounds stupid, I know 😉 ). She has a happy life, she travels the world, and she is surrounded by the people she loves. For the first time in my life, I had something to pursue. I had many good reasons to wake up in the morning, and I had a strong belief that someday I’d get there.

And then today, after so many years have passed me by, anytime I look back to my past, I still can’t believe how that insecure, lazy, and grumpy girl can live the life I live in now. It’s not a perfect one, not either an easy one, but it’s nearly everything I’ve always dreamed of. And most of the times I think, I might not be who I am today if it was not because of that boy I met so many years ago.

Last week, I was sitting in a blue taxi taking me to Grand Indonesia, just by myself. As I just said, my life is everything I’ve always dreamed of, except when it comes to love.  Then out of the blue, I thought of him, and it just hit me… he was actually the biggest loss I’ve ever had in life.

Back to the past, I was only a teenager when the first time I met him. So many things made me decide that he was not good enough for me. I mean, he and his tons of girlfriends! Could I ever trust him? So that I thought, I was still young, I would still meet a lot of new boys at school, college, and later at work!

Then what about my real life after that? Is it true that I would meet another boy in another chance?

It’s true that I met a lot of new guys after that one guy, but recently I just realized… none of those new guys treated me the way he did. I don’t know how deep their feelings to me, but one thing I know, there was nobody ever fought for me and wanted to be with me as much as he did. I rarely doubt my own decision, yet this time, I began to wonder, “What my life would be if I did it differently?”

Does it mean that I regret my decision? Well, I’m actually still a believer that everything happens for a reason. I don’t think this guy regrets the ending of our story since now he is happily married anyway. So no, I don’t think it’s something to regret. Yet if there is one thing I’ve learned, I simply learned that I should have given him a chance. I should have given myself a chance, not only back then, but also to the chances to come! At least even if it fails, I know that I have given my very best fight. Failure may haunt me for years, but a regret for never trying may haunt me for a lifetime!

However, regardless how it was ended between us, I’m still so grateful that I met him. And somehow I believe, each and everyone of us got one, didn’t we? We all had that someone who brought out the very best in us, the one who enhanced us, the one who made us a better us. And if everything happens for a reason, I believe he happened to become my wake-up call. He was not someone who was meant to be with me, but he was still someone who changed my life.

Finally, as I believe he has no regret on me, I really hope that someday I’ll prove myself that I also have nothing to regret on him. I hope that someday, I will meet someone that makes me realize that all those heartbreaks have finally made a perfect sense. A perfect sense that brings me to someone who is meant to be with me, forever and ever 🙂


4 Responses to "Someone Who Changed My Life"

Im still in that ” insecure, lazy, and grumpy girl” state, my life is okay but not wonderful, and Im feeling empty somehow.

But yeah I guess I just need some time, or that special person who will give me that wake up call?

Thank you so much for writing this! I hope that you’ll find your soulmate soon 🙂

Hi Izza… Just like an alarm, wake up call is just a one time thing. At the end of the day, the huge efforts to wake up and start our day totally lays on us.

Find something you love to do, the one that makes you get lost in time, and do a lot of them! Start from there and you will figure out what you want to pursue next.

Good luck!

You can find him, Kak Riffa
There will be someone who will love you just the way you are..

I don’t know why but everytime I read your blog, it always makes me see my ownlife and everytime I finished reading your blog, I try to face my ownlife like what you said in your blog.

It’s really inspiring blog for me..

Should we meet in the real life, Kak? 🙂

Aww… That’s flattering 🙂 Thanks! Iya ya, kita bikin aja acara meet up sekalian sama blog reader yang lain, hehehehe.

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Life took me to many unimaginable people. The super kind, the selfless, the brave men, and of course, the mean and rude people, cheaters, liars, hypocrites, extremely arrogant, and all other qualities that got me thinking, “I never thought such people like these do exist!”
But I’ve also come to learn that sometimes, there is a bright side of the darkest people I know. They’re not always good, but they’re not always bad either.
At the end of the day, it helps me to define the people I can bear and the people I can’t stand. And most importantly, it helps me to decide the person I would like to become. I’m not a funny person. I’m not good at mingle with random people. I’m fierce, I’m a straight-talker, I get annoyed easily, and I have this resting b face that makes me look angry all the times. I’m not that kind of person whom people would miss when I’m not around.
But you know what?
I’m okay with all that flaws I have in me. Nobody is perfect, and neither am I. At the same time; everyone on earth is special, and so am I.
I know my worth. I know what I’m very good at. I know what I want and I work hard to make it happen. I’m a go getter and I fight my battles. I’m not an angel, but I’m not a devil either.
I was born to be the very best of myself, and just because I don’t always have what others have, it doens’t make me less as a person inside out. I’m whole just the way I am, and I’m beyond grateful of all that. I know that my career has been a bit of trouble for my personal life. I admit that it feels like a loss to me sometimes, but you know what? I don’t feel sorry about all that, not a even just a little bit.
My career has given me a comfort bed to sleep, taken me to the places I’ve never seen, brought me to the incredible people who end up as my best friends, and most importantly, it has really made my parents proud. I can sleep tight at night knowing that at least, I can support my parents after their retirements.
The way I see it, there’s nothing bad about all that, so why should anybody in my position feel sorry and less proud about their own hard works?
Don’t let anybody make you feel less than who you are. Make yourself and your loved ones proud, and for me, the rest doesn’t matter at all.
Be great, women! Whatever you choose to do for your own life, be great at it and don’t feel sorry for anything good in your life! Happy International Women’s day and stay awesome!

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