A journey to remember

The Best Decision in Life

Posted on: July 7, 2015

imageThere are so many things happened recently that pushes me to make some kind of life-changing decisions. And I really hate it when it comes to make such important decision. It feels like I no longer know myself. I suddenly don’t know what I really want for my own life. I was confused until this morning, I looked into my phone screen and realized that I hadn’t changed the wallpaper for ages. I still used the picture of my previous office room’s decoration that I took over than one year ago!

Then I opened the picture gallery in my phone, looking for a new picture to be set as my wallpaper. I kept scrolling up until I found a candid photo shoot from a couple months ago. That was not the first time I saw that picture of me yet somehow, it still blew my mind. It was just an ordinary picture taken by my cousin using my iPhone 5. A candid picture taken right while I was laughing outloud. I looked so happy and my life seems so easy! I did still remember how I ever loved this picture just because of that reason.

That day, I had a fine afternoon with my families in a beautiful place in Bandung. I happened to visit its playground to look after my little nephew. When my sister came to play with his son, I walked to a wooden swing and played with it for a while. The breeze on my face, the beautiful surrounding, and the euphoria of playing with a swing after a quite long time made me feel so happy. I laughed at my nephew from the swing and right at that moment, my cousin captured this beautiful picture.

I know that it’s not an award winning photo or something, but seeing that picture is somehow comforting to me. It’s not that I have an awful life, it’s just that I’m happy to see me happy. I decided to use that picture as my new wallpaper and everytime I looked at it all day today, this picture just never failed to attract myself.

And then tonight, I was on the way back home, I took my phone from my bag, and there I saw this picture again. I looked at how bright and shiny and happy I was. Then again, it reminded me to that one beautiful afternoon with my families. Just like that, I suddenly knew what I really wanted in life. I only want to have a lot more beautiful days in my life. I want to smile and laugh a lot more and more. I want to have more of that moment where I whisper to myself, “I’m so happy with my life and I can’t be more grateful than this.”

Again, it doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong with the life I already have, it’s just that now I know how a best decision looks like. It may not look glamorous, fancy, or anything like that, not either the easiest or prettiest option I may ever have, but it should be the one that I know will bring joy into my life. I know that I may be wrong, but I will also know that I have chosen what’s best to myself. I think it’s one of the moments where people say when you know, you know.

Now that I know what I want, then it’s time for me to go and get what I really want! Finger cross!

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I used to read a quote written by my former lecture saying that even a bad decision would always be much better than no decision at all. It reminded me of the decisions I put on hold and I asked myself, “What prevents me from making all those decisions?” I could instantly listed down many personal reasons that didn’t even sound good to myself. So there I made a couple of decisions; the good ones and the bad ones, and apparently it was so true: even bad decision was still better than no decision at all. First of all, it helped me to move on. I no longer waited for this and that; I made decisions and I started to make the actions. It also gave me a peace of mind knowing that I owed nothing to anyone, not even to myself. And most importantly, all those decisions made me learn, notably the bad ones. It’s not that I intentionally made a bad one, but well, how did I know my decision was bad until I gave it a try? Ever since the day I decided to stop putting my decisions on hold, my life felt a lot lighter and I have never been more proud of myself. Other people might not be happy with my decisions, but I only do what I’ve got to do and they can’t blame me for having courage to do the things they’re not willing to do. If it holds me back and nobody wants to make the call, then let me do the honor. It’s actually that simple, and again, it sets me free.
My biggest career goal is always running my own business. I have been an entrepreneur even since I was a seven years old. I was never hesitate everytime I saw an opportunity to earn some cash to buy toys and comic books. Graduating from college and starting my first corporate job has stopped me from doing my own business. I was too busy to do something else beside my main job. I tried to run a small jewelry business but then I got bored. I came to learn that if I want to start a business, I have to do something bigger. But of course, a bigger scale own business will also require a bigger effort! The comfort of corporate job made me decide to postpone starting a new business until at some point, it was no longer comforting to me. I still remember one night I went home feeling extremely upset with my boss and I just told myself, “I can’t do this forever. I can do much better than working for a jerk.” Right at that moment, I decided to start my biggest dream: starting my own business. Not so long after that, @thelenstory was born.
There is this one little secret about @thelenstory. There was one particular guy who made me fall deeper with photography. He was so talented he could make an old dirty lamp look beautifully glow in his pictures. I still remember that day on a boat, he took pictures of me and he smiled behind his lens. That kind of smile that made me feel the prettiest girl on earth. I didn’t know why but I just loved seeing this guy holding his camera. I even still loved it when he took pictures of me with his grumpy face! At the end of the day, The Lens Story is way more than just a girl who fell in love. The ups and downs, and all lifetime savings that I’ve spent have been the greatest leap of faith I’ve ever taken in my entire life. That one guy from my past was just a starting point. He was my inspiration, he made me believe that there were many hidden talents like him out there and I would be more than happy to help them start their professional career in photography. That was the very beginning story on how my start-up was born, and to me, that will always be one of my favorite stories to tell.

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