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New Year, New Hope

Posted on: January 1, 2012

There was that one t-shirt I bought in Phuket for my ex-crush in almost 2 years ago. I never had the courage to give it to him but still hoped that someday I would have a chance to give this.

As the time goes by, the more I deny whether those past moments were real. Maybe I was wrong, I took him wrong, since the very first time. However… deep in my heart, I did still hope that someday God would give us another chance.

This morning, I saw that t-shirt on my ex-desk in my aunty’s house which I used to live until last year. That t-shirt was still on its plastic package. I looked at it and realized… there would be no more future for the two of us.

Then for a while I considered… What should I do with this t-shirt? I could give it to my brother but I don’t want to see this on anybody else. Or I could just throw this into the trash bin… but that would be a waste of money.

Before I went back to parents’ home, I took the t-shirt, took it out from the package, then I put it in my paper bag so that I could bring it home. Yes, I have decided to take this t-shirt as mine.

As soon as I arrived at home, I found that there was no clean t-shirt in my bedroom. I was too lazy to find something to wear outside the bedroom. Then I remembered with that Phuket t-shirt. I took this out from the paper bag and wore it for sleeping tonight. And you know what… It looks good on me, feels comfortable, and suddenly I thought, “Why should I wait so long just to wear this t-shirt?”

It might be only an unimportant story for all of you, but for me, it’s a true sign that I have given up my hope. It’s new year, and it’s time for me to search for another new hope. New year, new hopes, but I wish this time, it’s gonna be a hope which could come true. Amin 🙂

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I’m not a funny person. I’m not good at mingle with random people. I’m fierce, I’m a straight-talker, I get annoyed easily, and I have this resting b face that makes me look angry all the times. I’m not that kind of person whom people would miss when I’m not around.
But you know what?
I’m okay with all that flaws I have in me. Nobody is perfect, and neither am I. At the same time; everyone on earth is special, and so am I.
I know my worth. I know what I’m very good at. I know what I want and I work hard to make it happen. I’m a go getter and I fight my battles. I’m not an angel, but I’m not a devil either.
I was born to be the very best of myself, and just because I don’t always have what others have, it doens’t make me less as a person inside out. I’m whole just the way I am, and I’m beyond grateful of all that. I know that my career has been a bit of trouble for my personal life. I admit that it feels like a loss to me sometimes, but you know what? I don’t feel sorry about all that, not a even just a little bit.
My career has given me a comfort bed to sleep, taken me to the places I’ve never seen, brought me to the incredible people who end up as my best friends, and most importantly, it has really made my parents proud. I can sleep tight at night knowing that at least, I can support my parents after their retirements.
The way I see it, there’s nothing bad about all that, so why should anybody in my position feel sorry and less proud about their own hard works?
Don’t let anybody make you feel less than who you are. Make yourself and your loved ones proud, and for me, the rest doesn’t matter at all.
Be great, women! Whatever you choose to do for your own life, be great at it and don’t feel sorry for anything good in your life! Happy International Women’s day and stay awesome! My life has been going great in the past one month. Incredibly busy, but I can’t be happier.
I work my new job during the weekdays and work on my own start-up all over the weekends. It’s tiring and consuming all my energies, but it never feels like a hard work somehow.
I meet many people who are super friendly, I get to work with new challenges that test me every single thing I’ve learned in my entire career, and at the same times, I still manage to pursue my lifetime dream! For the first time ever, I understand how it feels like to love what I do that I never have to work a day in my life.
God, thank YOU for all these blessings! I often said I couldn’t ask for more, yet again, You gave me more and more reasons to be thankful over and over. I’m beyond blessed! Alhamdulillah.

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