Honestly, I used to think that it was okay to let out my rage as much as I want. I must have a good reason to be angry, and I know that deep down, I’m a good person. I am truthful and I never have any intention to harm anyone else. Nobody is perfect, and rage control just happens to be my imperfection. On top of that, being brave, honest, and outspoken has a price to pay and I simply think I can’t always please everyone at everytime. I truly believe that people who really love me will always forgive me and at the end of the day, they will always find a way back to me anyway.
I kept thinking that I had done the right thing until I saw my own thought from the opposite perspective. One thing led to another, I got hurt, and I couldn’t believe that it had just happened to myself. It broke my heart, it made me feel like I’m a total s*** as a person, and I couldn’t stop wondering what I did so wrong that made me deserve to be treated like that. The worst part is that the more I try to let it go and pretend that everything is okay, the more I put pressures on myself and the more I got hurt inside.
At that point, I realize… The truth is, there’s never a good reason to hurt somebody. There’s no good deed that we did that give us right to hurt people that deep. Having said that nobody is perfect, it doesn’t necessarily mean that we’ve got an excuse to break someone else’s heart. We can’t expect that we can go mad and people will always come back! It’s true that we have a right to say whatever we want to say, but the people whom we hurt, they have every right to refuse to take us back in their life.
Don’t take someone’s pain for granted, because sometimes, they just don’t know how to go back from their own pain. The wound may be healed, but they will never forget how we used to make them feel. Things may never be the same again, even if they try, even if they want to. Don’t hurt someone so much it’s unbearable, especially, when they actually deserve to be treated a lot better than that.