Last night, I had a quite long chat with an old friend and I told him how I felt like I hadn’t had enough in my career path. I said, “I’m not yet satisfied with my career achievement. It’s not that I’m not grateful, it’s just that I haven’t reached a point where I think; this is it.”
I do really feel that way about myself. It feels like I haven’t done much enough for the companies I’ve worked for. As much as I’m proud of being a part of my current Company, I still feel like I haven’t found that one thing I really want to do for the rest of my life. I also don’t feel like I’ve learned much enough in my life, I’m not yet as good as I want me to be, and I still have a so long way to go before defining my career as a success.
And then a few hours later, I found this video. I watched it, and it gave me chills! And yeah… a little bit of tears came out, just a little bit 😉
I don’t know how much score will be given by my families or best friends about my success, but it got me thinking… maybe, I’ve been too tough to myself. It’s good to be the hardest critic to myself, but maybe, it’s been over the top. And again, it reminded me once again to be thankful for all I have.
Yes, it’s still true that it takes a really long time for me just to figure out the next best thing in life. But hey, good things take time, don’t they?
And yes, it’s also true that I haven’t been somewhere I really want me to be… but I’ll get there! I know I’ll get there.
So maybe, I just need to be a little bit more kind to myself. Just one rejection doesn’t necessarily mean the whole years I’ve been working on is a failure. Other mediocre gets the same job with mine doesn’t make me out of the blue on the same average level with them. Been struggling in pursuing my big dreams doesn’t necessarily mean that I have failed either. I only fail once I give it up, right?
Life is still a long way to go. I haven’t failed, I just haven’t arrived in my final destination because I’m a little bit lost along the way. But that’s okay! As long as I keep on going, then I’m already on a right direction. For now, all I need to do is taking a deep breath, smile, give applause for myself, and continue running toward my finish line. I still don’t think that I have been as successful as I wish I were, but perhaps it’s true, I’m actually more successful than I realize.
And well, maybe, it’s a sign that it’s okay to reward myself a fancy trip, a little bit over budget, in my Greece trip this month, no? 😉
P.s.: Tomorrow is another Monday, let’s continue the race!