Last Friday was really one of those exhausting days in life. So many things went wrong, everything ran so fast that I barely had a moment to breath, so many plans didn’t work out in a way I desired, so little times yet so many works remained undone… Not to mention that I literally feel extremely tired everytime I wake up from sleep in the morning.
At some point, I couldn’t help myself but wondering… When will this madness end? Will it ever end in the first place?
But then on Saturday, I had a lovely day. After being occupied with lots of works for a while, I finally had a chance to do one thing that I always love to do: went shopping. As much as I love shopping online; which I did a lot more often lately, walk along the mall and carry the shopping bags on my own hands are somehow irreplaceable.
I love the sounds of the hangers in a small boutique. The smell of new books in a bookstore. I love hunting, fitting, and paying for the stuffs I love to buy. And just like that, I forgot my things to do back at work. I forgot how stressful this life can be. I forgot all the disappointment and failure that brought me down. And then at the end of the day, I asked myself, why should I want this madness to end? My life is running so fast, but thanks to that, it also brought me faster to the things I always dreamed of in life.
You know… that last shopping day was actually no ordinary shopping day. It was a shopping trip to buy the things I need for the upcoming vacation trip by the end of this week.
I bought a pair of sandals, and when I did, I picture myself walking on a white sandy beach. I also bought a new beach bag that fits my snorkel, and when I saw it, all that I could think of was the beauty of under the sea. I also bought a sunblock, travel size toiletries, medicines, all of the small things that will come in handy during my trip!
All that joys on last Saturday has told me this one big thing: I simply need a break. It’s not about my job, it’s not about the battles I’ve lost, it’s not about me having no idea about my own life. It’s simply about me doing all other things that I love to do. I love working and pursuing my dreams, but a nonstop run will only kill myself. It’s just like traveling. No matter how much I love it, a nonstop trip will only make me dying over a boredom.
I need to wake up in a beautiful place knowing that a new adventure will soon begin. I need to wander and get lost and made a discovery along the way. I need to jump off to the water and make that blue sea as my pool. I need to go to bed at night knowing that I still have another day to travel and even later in my last night, I will be able to tell myself that I’m ready to get back to my real and wonderful life back at home.
Again sometimes, all that we need is just a break, a very good one. Reward ourselves for all the hard works, the sleepless nights, and all the pain and tears we had along the journey. Relax, have fun, and when I’m back, I will be in my very best state to figure out the next best thing in life. What’s next? What do I really want? And how do I get there? Well, let’s keep those questions until my vacations ends! 😉
Happy Monday and happy holiday for those who celebrate! 🙂