The New Year’s Eves

Jakarta, December 31, 2014

One year ago, something terrible happened to me. It was definitely the worst new year’s eve I’ve ever had. One devastating event that I may never forget for the rest of my life. It was so heartbreaking that I couldn’t stopped asking myself, “How could this happen to me? I’m only trying to do the right thing, but why did I get this in return?”

That night, I didn’t curse. That night, I hoped nothing but the best for me in the year to come. Deep in my heart, I only had one big wish for myself: I wish for a better life, I wish that I’ll be somewhere I’ll smile and laugh a lot more, I wish that I find a place where I belong.

One year later, here I am… writing this post, in a peace that I finally found. God granted my wish to move forward and leave all of that pain behind. I had my new life, a better one. It’s a better life which I believe that I deserve.

Today, if I look back, I finally understand why that terrible new year’s eve happened to me back then. It happened so that I moved on. It happened to bring me here, to the place that I belong.

In 2014, I met so many great friends along the year. Caring friends who texted me and told me to go to the hospital when I was sick. Lovely friends who gave me one of the sweetest birthday surprises I’ve ever had.  And genuine friends whom I never doubt their sincerity to me.

This year, for the first time ever, I work with colleagues with various nationalities. I’ve counted that I work with colleagues from 23 different countries! A few months back, a conference call always terrified me. But now? It’s a piece of cake! 😉 Some of them did come and go in no time, but it’s always a pleasure to have them along the way.

Again this year is also another year of achievement to me. An unexpected promotion was granted to me three months ago. I never thought that I would go this far by now. I’m so blessed and of course, so proud of myself 😀

Finally this year, I did learn to love again. After three years passed me by, I finally found someone new. It was not a happy ending, frankly it was only one sided feeling, but that’s okay! It made me learn how to be a big girl with a big heart. Whatever happened, I’m still glad that I met him. It was such a reminder how falling in love can be so beautiful to me 😉

And you know what… all of that beauty would never ever happen if that terrible night did not happen to me one year ago. It happened because it had to happen. It was not only a wake up call, but I have to admit, it was also a reminder to me to control myself. A part of it was indeed my own fault. It was harsh, but it was necessary to make me learn how to be a better one.

2014 is about to end. For sure that I can tell… I have a great, wonderful, and happy year. Forget about the hard times, the downfall, the heartbreak, it was still an awesome year to me. Yet of course I still hope, 2015 will be also an awesome one. I’m hoping to live more, love more, and I just can’t wait for the surprises in the year to come!

Happy new year for my blog reader. As written in my new year’s resolutions, I hope that in 2015, I can write for you much more often than before. I love writing and I simply want to do more things that I love in this new year. Thanks for reading, for the warm and supportive comments in my posts, and I hope, you guys will never get bored, hehehehe.

Have a great year, everyone!

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